sworn to war

so I have been rebeating the mass effect series to take a look at myself.  One thing I got out of this was I think no matter what I am doing I am always going to be a combatant.  I think no matter if it is going to look like ranger, warrior, warlord, or assassin I am there to fight.  I think I like balanced combatants over anything else though.

black manna root

So for those of you that know me I had a period of black manna in my life that was changed by an elf phase.  But now with the way life is progressing I think the black was just buried not removed.  Now over the years through erosion I think that the black manna has been seeping through the cracks and I am a lot more ruthless and have a lot less tolerance for the shortcomings of humanity.  I am trying to make changes in my life but if things don't change I believe that the black will resurface.  The important question is will a change just rebury the black manna or will it be powerful enough to remove the black manna from its root.