sworn to war

so I have been rebeating the mass effect series to take a look at myself.  One thing I got out of this was I think no matter what I am doing I am always going to be a combatant.  I think no matter if it is going to look like ranger, warrior, warlord, or assassin I am there to fight.  I think I like balanced combatants over anything else though.

black manna root

So for those of you that know me I had a period of black manna in my life that was changed by an elf phase.  But now with the way life is progressing I think the black was just buried not removed.  Now over the years through erosion I think that the black manna has been seeping through the cracks and I am a lot more ruthless and have a lot less tolerance for the shortcomings of humanity.  I am trying to make changes in my life but if things don't change I believe that the black will resurface.  The important question is will a change just rebury the black manna or will it be powerful enough to remove the black manna from its root.

The Wolverine

Ok so just saw the new x-men movie the wolverine and it almost single handily made up for the past movies they put out.  If you were thinking you might pass this movie due to x-men's past, don't.  I'm not going to talk that much about it don't want to give anything away, though the cliff hanger after the credits is awesome cannot wait for the next movie.

Honor

So for those of you that do not know I hit a wall a couple days ago, but things have once again improved.  On the philosophical front I have come back to a key component to my philosophy and that is honor.  So for now on I have to remember to keep things honorable.  I came to this conclusion when we were playing SC2 as random and I kept getting Protoss. This reminded me why I always liked them in the first place, a culture built around honor.  So for now on I need to remain focused and always keep honor in mind, and with this I shall force honor on the world.

Mass Effect

So I have beaten all of Mass Effect. The franchise as a whole was very well done.  I thought ME 1 was the best out of all three followed by ME 3 then ME 2.  I think when you look at it ME 1 had a decent system, sure it needed some work, which by ME 3 it seems that they got it to where they wanted it.  Unlike ME 2 where they completely overhauled the system in which they, pretty much got rid of class customization, and the game overall seemed forced upon you instead of you on it, the you just go around and harvesting every planet and end up getting every upgrade.  ME 3 was then cleaned up to get a good level of class customization and brought back equipment, which also gave you more customization.  The biggest downfall of ME 3 in my opinion was the lack of squad members.  I mean come on you did not get a single Krogan, the best race in the game.  After gameplay it comes down to storyline.  I think that the ME 1 story line just stood out more than the others not that ME 3's story line was bad just that I like ME 1 a little better, and like I said before ME 2 just felt like it was forced upon you.

Something New

So after a long time of contemplation I have played and beaten Mass Effect one over the last few days.  For the longest time I did not want to play it because I was not much of a fan of science fiction.  I don't know when and where we had a falling out but there has been a rekindling.  What really got me to try it was that because I could justify playing Metroid why could I not give Mass Effect a try.  It was only twenty dollars and I could not think of a reason not to do it.  If I did not like it I could just stop so why not.  In the end I really liked Mass Effect one and am now have moved on to Mass Effect two.  We will see what happens.  The main point though is it feels good to be doing something new.  It is always good to have something new to manifest my will in, and to get a better understanding and further development of self.  This also has put me in a philosophical upturn, which has been low for far too long.  Now I just need to figure out what to do about reality.

The ill efects of the past

I look at myself and I wonder did I ever truly leave evil behind.  Sure I have changed from what I was one things first started but how much has truly changed.  Could it be that I am just a more wise evil than I once was.  On a separate note I wonder how much of my life was determined because I was able to play the evil side of the game.  To put this in a better perspective if you look at LOTR you are only able to play on the side of good.  On the other hand you look at WOW and you are able to play on the more brutal side.  That is where I fell, with the trolls trying to get gods to come down so that they could eat them.  I find myself wondering where I would have ended up if I would have been on the more heroic side of things instead of the more evil and brutal side.  Which brings me back to my original point have I really left evil behind.  And to that I don't think that I have.  I think that no matter what I try to mask the evil with it will always be there deep down at the root of my soul.

Death is only the begining

So for those out of the loop that white binge did not last long.  I am a creature of the divine spectrum and when the whim of the gods claim me, I listen.  Which leads to a return of Ryan the cursed traitor to mortals.  That's right the gods of death have made their voices heard and I will follow.

Philosophical Update

Man I have not blogged in a while.  Though nothing really has changed on martial level but things have really been moving on the philosophical level.  In the philosophical level I think I think I will be able to finally accept white mana.  It is going to have to a working progress, especially that I live in a black mana scape.  In the end it is going to be worth it.  I am just going to have to make the most out of a bad situation.  Another change is the attempted switch from combatant to strategist.  This also came with my first shogun two victory, which is a good sign of things to come.  Hopefully things will start looking up.

Another Day in Hell

So there have been two mass shootings in like a week here in hell the most recent one ending in the death of 28 people, 20 children, 6 adults, the shooters mom, and a suicide.  People really have gone insane here in hell.  I want to say that it seems like the old social order has gone or is fading away and people are desperately trying to find anything to replace it.  Some people go so crazy that they decide to just end it and go on a rampage.  Really what needs to happen is an establishment of a new social order.  However, no one is working on, or really knows what that should be.  Instead we are still trying to bring back the one that excised before.  Well I guess Hell must go on. 

Rise of the Golgari

So I have not posted in a while, there just has not been that much to talk about.  As of late I have been going with a golgari philosophy or what I like to call solo survival.  It feels good to be in the lone ranger shoes so to say.  To accompany this I have been playing skyrim as a werewolf.  If you get it really early in the game and don't level up too high it works quite well.  Really I still don't have that much to say just that I am liking the golgari philosophy.

The world should burn

Doesn't this just look like fun.

suburban waist

It feels like I live in a place where people go to die or pass their life on for the sake of  their kids.  It is like death lives here where there is like nothing to do.  Which is fine for the my parents because they have chosen to have kids but for me it is boring as hell.  The problem is I am poor as hell.  So there is nothing I can do about it, not until I find something to move forward.  I don't know just that this place feels so dead.

The World System

Ok so their are three different types of systems that the world can be focused on military, economics, and I don't have good name for the third one so I am going to call it star treck.  It is possible that society could advance higher than the third world system but I would not have a clue of what that would be.  Our world currently works off a economic system.  The problem is that the order and cause behind it is broken.  This means that the world need a military coup of the system.  For that is what a military system is for.  It lays down the system of order on which the world works and creates a cause for the world to fight for.  Now what that order or cause should look like I have no idea.  After this the military would take a back seat and devote its time to making sure that the order and cause are maintained, and an economic system will take its place as the ruling force of humanity.  It is the job of the economic system to bring us to the point were resources are no longer a problem so we can get out of consumerism hell and move on to a better and brighter future of system 3.

Olympic Soccer

So Japan's women soccer is unable to beat the United States again they ended up with silver in the olympics.  I was really hopping for the repeat of the world cup on this one.  I think the biggest difference was the United States played much better this time then at the world cup.  Not to say that Japan did not play well.  That is really all I have to say right now.

People are weak

Holy crap some people just do not know how to deal with shit.  People have been going nuts after the shooting in Colorado.  If anything out of the ordinary happens people just do not know what to do.  They freak the fuck out.  Just calm down and wait for everyone to forget what happened like every other mass killing.  Not only can one not go to the movies and act a little weird anymore with out people fleeing but apparently this guy has created a stand alone complex.  There have been three arrests of other people who have sited this guy as inspiration.  The human mind is so fragile that people will just do what ever.  Why do you need someone else to do it first.  Just do it and get it over with.  And for the people freaking the fuck out calm the fuck down.  And as always you know what, GOOD!

really

ok this is how dumb some people are.  http://movies.msn.com/movies/article.aspx?news=743945  Yea that's right Limbaugh thinks that the well established batman villain bane is a play to try and damage Mit Romney you did not miss read something.  People are really dumb and have no idea what is going on.

Douche Bags

I believe that I have posted about douche bags before but some things just have to be brought up multiple times.  I just do not get douche bags.  Is their lives so bad that they have to try and make it worse for everyone else.  If your life is that bad that you have to try and bring other people down just do the world a favor and kill yourself.  Your life is not going to get better, I do not know what you are waiting for. 

Japan

So I got back from Japan yesterday and overall it was a worthwhile experience.  Obviously like every experience there are good and bad.  Things that could have gone better:
1.  The night life.  Because the subways close at midnight you have to get back to the place of your hotel before the trains close or sleep on the street, which from what I heard is not that uncommon.  So unless you are staying at a high priced hotel you have to try and find something nearby.  Also instead of having open bars you go to a bar in groups and get your own room.  This makes the night life difficult for visitors.
2.  The language beerier.  I feel that if I new the language the experience would have been better.  This was not really a negative as much as it was just that the experience could have been better if I knew the language.
3. Wi-Fi/IMessage.  In Japan all the Wi-Fi you have to sign up for.  If I would have known about this I would have done so.  This made it so I could not get a hold of the friend that I have who was living there, so we were unable to meet up.  Probably should have made some plans before we left.  Even when i found some Wi-Fi I could not get IMessage to work.  So I have a bone to pick with apple to understand what happened.

Things that went great:
1.  Asian women everywhere!  Yea that was great.  Though I did not get with one, see the bad stuff for an explanation.  Also I think because it was me and my brother, two 6' 4" Americans, I think we may have intimidated some people. 
2.  The anime and arcades.  There is anime everywhere.  Also a lot of which was One Piece.  That was awesome.  On the One Piece note Chopper is like the most popular character.  The arcades are way better there then the ones that we have in America.  The electronics district also known as Akihabara was awesome, and if anyone is interested in a maid cafe that is where you can find one it was awesome.  Out of all the arcades that we went to I think the one in Fukuoka was the best.

Going to have to find an easy way to get pictures on here on a later post.

A Lot on the Mind

For those that did not know I have spent the last week doing family stuff in Chicago for a week.  Overall it was a good week.  It got me away from some shit that I did not like and was able to just do nothing.  Unlike some of the other people I know i do not have that many problems with my family on a non philosophical level.  It was also good to see some people that I have not seen in a while.  Most importantly it gave me some time to think about some stuff on my personal outlook on life. 

How is it that so many people are able to just live there life without any purpose.  Everyone is just content to live their life and gather resources and people.  That is all that the majority of humanity does.  I look at the way humanity lives and I wonder how it missed me,  for I am one of the few "awakened" people.  Its like out of random chance I awoke from the dream scape of reality only to realize that that humanity has no purpose.  A better way to say that would be that it lost its purpose somewhere along the way.  Its like humanity sat down to take a rest and was like hm this is kind of nice.  Why were we doing everything else before this.  Then some people got board and started to wonder away from the camp and the never came back.  The rest of humanity noticed this after it kept happening and then they started to warn people that tried to wonder.  So less people did, afraid that they might loose their meager existence of leisurely activities camp.  So humanity stopped moving and purpose and adventure was lost.  The only thing that humanity cares about now is their own personal pleasure. 

Which brings me to world problems.  Because I was in Chicago this past week i have heard a lot about the NATO meeting that has gone on here.  More specifically about the protests.  Really everyone is fucking stupid.  I hate everyone who is like the 1% or that they are pissed over college debt.  No one wants to take responsibilities of their own actions.  They are just like we have to worry about how to get the most out of or leisure activities as we can and this debt is slightly in the way of that.  You chose to go to college and get the useless degree in an expensive school stfu.  There were plenty of options that you could have chosen but you fell into the traps of society and got screwed.  Now you have to pay the price for your actions deal with it.  The problem is no one is smart enough or awake enough to see through the bullshit.  In our current society everyone is told to go to college.  The problem is that not everyone should be going to college.  Or that they go to college and get a useless degree where there is not a job market for or they spend to much money going to college and get a job that is not going to pay enough to pay off the debt they got.  Really this is just a small problem in the bigger picture.  The problem of purpose.  When humanity gave up purpose they later would decided to let people make their own decisions.  Along with that came ideas that government should be ruled by the people or representatives by the people.  This was a horrible idea.  All that the people need are bread and games and to be convinced that the purpose of the ruling is good for them as well.  The Greeks always said that democracy was the worst form of government and that a militaristic tyrannical dictator would be better.  This is because the people have no idea what they are doing are should be treated as such.  As for ditching purpose for luxury this was also a horrible idea.  The Romans always said that Luxos (Luxury) was the biggest sin of humanity.  And I am going to agree.  It is always easier to point out the problems of humanity than it is to solve them.  How to give humanity back its purpose and how to rule over the peasants is a hard one to fix and will take years of study to come up with an answer.